Sometimes, i still hope whatever happens is just a dream. Cos i never thought it will turn this way. Sbb selalu positive kot, i jadi macam ni. Dulu masa ayah nak pegi pun, i positive he could be heal, then he left. So do u, i postive that our effort wont go to drain but u left. Left without giving me a proper closure. Coward. Pengecut. I know you are now happy. I am happy too . I am accepting the fact but i still wanna know what was i for the whole two years. A joke?  I still cannot brain why did u have to put so much effort for me while u know u are marrying someone else. Till the day u r getting married pulak tu. Pheww.